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Does anyone know how to optain copyrights for your artwork???

Inktober is over! I hope everyone had an Amazing Halloween!! I had fun with the face paint! Compketely not the point of why I'm writing this! Any who~! I know that I missed a few days of Inktober. I'm completely disappointed in that but I can't help but to be proud of myself that I got that much done. I learned a lot from Inktober. For everyone that participated, I hope you learned from it too. Next up is National Write a Novel Month! I am participating in that too. Hopefully, I can write a novel in a month. When November is over, does anyone know what the other months are? Like how October is Inktober and November is NWNM; what are the other months, I wish to participate in them as well.

 I have absolutely no idea how to end this so I'm ending it here. Hopefully one you y'all knows and hopefully you'll tell me!

Lately, I feel as though I am alone. No, I've never been in a relationship. I'll be turning twenty next month and I've never been in a relationship. So if you can tell, my confidence level is very low. All my friends or ex-friends have kids and their either my age or younger.  I feel as though I'm missing out on life. I've started teaching myself how to play the guitar. I've also been painting, drawing, and writing a lot. To keep myself busy. I don't ever want to be home because That's where I feel more alone. I put on a smile during the day. I'll talk to my parents or to my siblings. Sometimes I'll even convince myself of my false happiness. I've had a blessed life. Truly, I have. My childhood was amazing besides of a few inncodents. I had the greatest friends in the world... We all moved apart. I stayed. They all moved away, either for college or with their family. Me? Too poor for college. I have back issues so it's very hard to even find a job that won't mess me up even more... I'm short so its hard finding an affordable car that I could actually see the hood of. I can't seem to catch up... I'm alone... And everyone knows it...

According to others, I'm becoming more heartless. I believe it ain't my fault really. Since I know no one will read this, I can get this off my chest. When ever I'm around others, rather it be my brother, my dad, a friend, or some random person, I feel as though everything they express are false. I don't feel as though I am appreciated and people are just using me. I try to help them in every way possible but I'm either in the way or they just don't care. Because I have issues with my back, it'll be extremely hard for me to find a job so i can move out. I REALLY want to get away from it all. it like in being suffocated in a world i use to all home. It just ain't fair! People get to judge me and I have to keep my mouth shut. 

Someone, I beg of you, show mew whats it's like to see colors again.... 

I have taken notice lately that people usually support the 'happy' artwork, especially when it comes to beginners. I've also seen the judgmental stares I get when I'm drawing something 'depressing.' People are not satisfy with what I do. Everything has to be done by the book. Everything has to be realistic. Everything has to be perfect. Even though I'm far from perfect, I've hardly ever been criticized. Scratch that. I don't even remember the last time I have been criticized. The point is, if you want me to learn from my mistakes, tell me what those mistakes are. Remember I am a dingy. If I too think that they are mistakes, I'll change. If not, you're just going to have to deal with it.

The Point is: I rather be criticized to my face then to be stared down in disappointment. No body is perfect. Stop trying to telepathically transform me. I am no mind reader. I'm oblivious to most things. If you have something to say, say it. Stop thinking that I'll break like a porcelain vase from even an insult.